I always looked for love. If we were going somewhere, vacation, visiting, whatever, and there would be boys my age, I kept my eye open for love.
Needless to say, I never found it.
But one day I stumbled across you. Now I don't have to look anymore, I have you ♥
You know why we are so great together? We never pretended. Usually the beginning of relationships start with 2 fake people trying to impress each other. From the beginning, we were ourselves. We thought there was no reason to impress each other. We fell in love with each other. You fell in love with me, even though most of the time I'm a bitch. You put up with me, even though sometimes I can barely put up with you. You know when I trick you into doing what I want, but you do it anyway. We lie together, leave each other, trap one another, and love each other. And that's the way I always want it to be.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
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Saturday, June 18, 2011
7 Months, 1 Day
Today's Shayne's birthday. It's been a pretty quiet day.
I went to a yard sale at the local church with my mum this morning. We didn't get many things, but I got a garment bag with all sorts of pockets and whatnot which is great for my cosplays :D
Mum dropped me off at Shayne's and I snuck in and scared the hell out of Corey, who I thought would be awake [It was 1] but was still asleep on the couch. Then I skipped to Shayne's room and pounced on him. He was so tired. I felt bad for waking him. Apparently him and Corey stayed up till 6:30 watching Power Rangers and doing puzzles. My boyfriend's a geek XD
We wanted Corey to grill some hamburgers cause he said something about making amazing burgers with cheese in them. But, unfortunately, there were no buns so he refused to make them. So, we spend forever and ever looking for something to make, and then finally Corey and I [using our amazing team work] find something, just to be told don't cook anything, we have to go to Shayne's mom's for surprise cake and ice cream. So, we didn't really eat. All day. >.<
But, somehow I got sick. Shayne walks me home and all of the sudden I'm running for the nearest waste bin :/ I'm feeling a bit better now, but bleh.
Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAYNE ♥
Oh, you too Chris XD
I went to a yard sale at the local church with my mum this morning. We didn't get many things, but I got a garment bag with all sorts of pockets and whatnot which is great for my cosplays :D
Mum dropped me off at Shayne's and I snuck in and scared the hell out of Corey, who I thought would be awake [It was 1] but was still asleep on the couch. Then I skipped to Shayne's room and pounced on him. He was so tired. I felt bad for waking him. Apparently him and Corey stayed up till 6:30 watching Power Rangers and doing puzzles. My boyfriend's a geek XD
We wanted Corey to grill some hamburgers cause he said something about making amazing burgers with cheese in them. But, unfortunately, there were no buns so he refused to make them. So, we spend forever and ever looking for something to make, and then finally Corey and I [using our amazing team work] find something, just to be told don't cook anything, we have to go to Shayne's mom's for surprise cake and ice cream. So, we didn't really eat. All day. >.<
But, somehow I got sick. Shayne walks me home and all of the sudden I'm running for the nearest waste bin :/ I'm feeling a bit better now, but bleh.
Anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAYNE ♥
Oh, you too Chris XD
Friday, June 17, 2011
7 Months
It's been 7 months already. Can you believe it? It seems like just yesterday you professed your love to me and I shot you down XD
Our relationship started out in a way that caused me to believe it wouldn't last. I was "with" Mark at the time, and you texted me the week after his grandma died to ask me where he was. A simple text with a simple answer sparked a conversation that still hasn't died ♥ We became friends rather quickly, although having Corey and Chris probably rushed it along since I was already comfortable with them. I remember the morning before homecoming, you texting me that you had Bat Country on Guitar Hero and that I should come over and play it with you and Chris. You guys walked me home then sat out front and voted on which dress Laura should wear. You guys kept switching porches on us, telling us that we were coming out the wrong door :P
After homecoming, we took off. The Monday after, I was mad at Mark and Mark was bitching about me, so you forced us to meet after school and make amends. Now that I think about it, he never apologized to me.
You tell me now that that was the day you realized you liked me.
We hung out often-almost every day after that. The first time we went to West Franklin we built a fairy house and you tackled me so I couldn't leave. I usually keep things like that to myself, but for some reason I told you what I was building, and imagine my surprise when you didn't laugh, but instead sat down and help me build it out of mulch and moss. We played Mercy. I knew you were going easy on me- I'd seen you kill Chris' hand playing against him. I tried to get away and threatened to run home so you grabbed my foot and I fell over. That was the first time I'd been so close to you, and I liked it.
That was the day I started to like you.
One day, maybe a week after West Franklin, we were playing Mercy on the couch. Now you were just using the game as an excuse to hold me close. You had me on your lap, holding me so I couldn't get free, even though I was trying my hardest. You licked my neck, something you had started just a few days prior. I liked it, a lot. Of course, I didn't tell you and instead acted disgusted. You threatened to kiss me. I called your bluff. You kissed me. Just a short peck on the lips, but you did it. I sat there dazed, unsure of how to react. You apologized. I think you kissed me again that night, I'm not sure. The day after, or 2 days after, we went back to West Franklin. You kissed me again, while playing that same game. After I got free and it was time to leave, I stormed off. You kept asking what was wrong, but it wasn't until we were halfway to my house that I confronted you. I told you if you were going to kiss someone, actually kiss them, a short peck on the lips wasn't a kiss. I stormed off again, but this time you caught me and wouldn't let me go, and kissed me.
After that, we spent our evenings teasing, playing, and making out. You were all hands that I kept batting away. One evening, when I was tired of batting your hands away from lower areas, I told you about my ex. You had already gone home, so it was over text. I think we have only ever talked on the phone once.
I think you cried. You apologized profusely and told me you never wanted to hurt me.
We went trick or treating together, you, me, and Mark. I thought that would be awkward, since I was still after him but messing around with you, but you guys were friends so it was okay. At the end of the night we ended up in front of Highland Park. It was cold and we were tired, so Mark and I layed down and cuddled on the sidewalk, almost like a brother and sister would. Mark eventually had you lay between us so we could use you as a pillow.
You said that was the night you realized you loved me.
You were jealous of Mark.
The week before my birthday, you told me you loved me. I was shocked. We weren't supposed to get attached to each other, we were friends, with minimal benefits. You had said "I luv u" (Oh, I'm glad I broke you of your text talk.) I told you that there was a difference between luv and love so it was okay. You texted back that you loved me. I basically told you that you weren't sure, that you didn't know what love was yet, and some other stuff like that. I felt bad, but I was still after Mark. Corey told me to tell you I didn't love you and to stop what we were doing. But, Corey also said to get rid of Mark and give in to you.
I asked Mark to tell me if me and him were going to be together. After a few days, he told me no. You were with me when he IMed me. That was the 16th. We started dating the 17th. That was 7 months ago. 7 months and you have never given me any reason to not be madly in love with you. Do you know how much you have accomplished? I got bored with Kyle, was lonely with Mark, but I want for nothing when I'm with you, except to have more time with you. You're the first man I've seen scared to lose me. You're the first one I've trusted with myself, wholly and completely.
I love you, Shayne. Always and forever ♥
Our relationship started out in a way that caused me to believe it wouldn't last. I was "with" Mark at the time, and you texted me the week after his grandma died to ask me where he was. A simple text with a simple answer sparked a conversation that still hasn't died ♥ We became friends rather quickly, although having Corey and Chris probably rushed it along since I was already comfortable with them. I remember the morning before homecoming, you texting me that you had Bat Country on Guitar Hero and that I should come over and play it with you and Chris. You guys walked me home then sat out front and voted on which dress Laura should wear. You guys kept switching porches on us, telling us that we were coming out the wrong door :P
After homecoming, we took off. The Monday after, I was mad at Mark and Mark was bitching about me, so you forced us to meet after school and make amends. Now that I think about it, he never apologized to me.
You tell me now that that was the day you realized you liked me.
We hung out often-almost every day after that. The first time we went to West Franklin we built a fairy house and you tackled me so I couldn't leave. I usually keep things like that to myself, but for some reason I told you what I was building, and imagine my surprise when you didn't laugh, but instead sat down and help me build it out of mulch and moss. We played Mercy. I knew you were going easy on me- I'd seen you kill Chris' hand playing against him. I tried to get away and threatened to run home so you grabbed my foot and I fell over. That was the first time I'd been so close to you, and I liked it.
That was the day I started to like you.
One day, maybe a week after West Franklin, we were playing Mercy on the couch. Now you were just using the game as an excuse to hold me close. You had me on your lap, holding me so I couldn't get free, even though I was trying my hardest. You licked my neck, something you had started just a few days prior. I liked it, a lot. Of course, I didn't tell you and instead acted disgusted. You threatened to kiss me. I called your bluff. You kissed me. Just a short peck on the lips, but you did it. I sat there dazed, unsure of how to react. You apologized. I think you kissed me again that night, I'm not sure. The day after, or 2 days after, we went back to West Franklin. You kissed me again, while playing that same game. After I got free and it was time to leave, I stormed off. You kept asking what was wrong, but it wasn't until we were halfway to my house that I confronted you. I told you if you were going to kiss someone, actually kiss them, a short peck on the lips wasn't a kiss. I stormed off again, but this time you caught me and wouldn't let me go, and kissed me.
After that, we spent our evenings teasing, playing, and making out. You were all hands that I kept batting away. One evening, when I was tired of batting your hands away from lower areas, I told you about my ex. You had already gone home, so it was over text. I think we have only ever talked on the phone once.
I think you cried. You apologized profusely and told me you never wanted to hurt me.
We went trick or treating together, you, me, and Mark. I thought that would be awkward, since I was still after him but messing around with you, but you guys were friends so it was okay. At the end of the night we ended up in front of Highland Park. It was cold and we were tired, so Mark and I layed down and cuddled on the sidewalk, almost like a brother and sister would. Mark eventually had you lay between us so we could use you as a pillow.
You said that was the night you realized you loved me.
You were jealous of Mark.
The week before my birthday, you told me you loved me. I was shocked. We weren't supposed to get attached to each other, we were friends, with minimal benefits. You had said "I luv u" (Oh, I'm glad I broke you of your text talk.) I told you that there was a difference between luv and love so it was okay. You texted back that you loved me. I basically told you that you weren't sure, that you didn't know what love was yet, and some other stuff like that. I felt bad, but I was still after Mark. Corey told me to tell you I didn't love you and to stop what we were doing. But, Corey also said to get rid of Mark and give in to you.
I asked Mark to tell me if me and him were going to be together. After a few days, he told me no. You were with me when he IMed me. That was the 16th. We started dating the 17th. That was 7 months ago. 7 months and you have never given me any reason to not be madly in love with you. Do you know how much you have accomplished? I got bored with Kyle, was lonely with Mark, but I want for nothing when I'm with you, except to have more time with you. You're the first man I've seen scared to lose me. You're the first one I've trusted with myself, wholly and completely.
I love you, Shayne. Always and forever ♥
Monday, June 13, 2011
6 Months, 3 Weeks, 4Days
SHAYNE GOT A HAIR CUT D:
It was sorta necessary. He got lice [not really bad, thank goodness. Also somehow I managed not to get it!! Shampooed anyway though. Gods those things need to DIE OFF THE FACE OF THIS EARTH!] and so Megan had to treat him and comb his hair. I thinned his hair for her, but that wasn't enough. She wanted it shorter D: D: She didn't go TOO short, I supposed, but now it's just past his shoulders. I miss his long hair :'(
Mum loves it though. She's been trying to get me to take scissors to it for forever. D:<
It was sorta necessary. He got lice [not really bad, thank goodness. Also somehow I managed not to get it!! Shampooed anyway though. Gods those things need to DIE OFF THE FACE OF THIS EARTH!] and so Megan had to treat him and comb his hair. I thinned his hair for her, but that wasn't enough. She wanted it shorter D: D: She didn't go TOO short, I supposed, but now it's just past his shoulders. I miss his long hair :'(
Mum loves it though. She's been trying to get me to take scissors to it for forever. D:<
Saturday, June 11, 2011
6 Months, 3 Weeks, 2 Days
You know, somehow my calendar is screwed up. It says today should be 6 months, 3 weeks, 5 days, but it's only the 12th. We have another 5 days until the 17th. Goodness >.>
I want to thank you. With all of this shit that's been going on lately, stressing me out, making me so emotional- You've helped so much. You've been there for me every step of the way, letting me rant, rave, and get all depressed. You're always there to cheer me back up and remind me how amazing and wonderful you are and how truly lucky I am to have you ♥
Your birthday is in a week. It's so hard to believe you'll only be 16. It seems as if you're the older one, like you should be turning 17, but I guess that's just another way the calendar's off.
I want to thank you. With all of this shit that's been going on lately, stressing me out, making me so emotional- You've helped so much. You've been there for me every step of the way, letting me rant, rave, and get all depressed. You're always there to cheer me back up and remind me how amazing and wonderful you are and how truly lucky I am to have you ♥
Your birthday is in a week. It's so hard to believe you'll only be 16. It seems as if you're the older one, like you should be turning 17, but I guess that's just another way the calendar's off.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
6 Months, 2 Weeks, 5 Days
Hunny, can you believe we're almost at 7 months? It doesn't seem like it's been that long, but yet it seems like it's been forever ♥
Colossalcon was amazing. For a full journal, refer to my other blog.
3 nights falling asleep and waking up by his side. Another 1.5-2 years before I can do that every day.
I love going to con with him. He's always by my side, even when I tell him we can split up if he wants to. Creepers stayed away from me whenever he was around :D And he dressed up for the formal ball. Damn, he dresses up nice. Now, where were these clothes during homecoming?!
I want to go back to the ball. Finally dragging Shayne out to dance then dancing slowly with him- first a sort of ballroom then the typical head-on-shoulder kind of dancing. I completely lost myself ♥ When I opened my eyes, I was sooo disoriented, but it was worth it.
We went to the rave, where he really loosened up. I could dance with him forever. ...Well, until my ribs ache XD
After we left, he penguin proposed to me ♥ I didn't know what he was doing when he handed me a round, sparklyish, off-white rock and nearly just dropped it down. Good thing I didn't, because he explained that when penguins choose a mate, they search the beach for the most perfect rock and give it to their mate. He didn't search all of the rocks, but it's a pretty nice rock :)
Penguins mate for life
I've spent forever writing this blog and I'm tired, but I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to sleep alone :/
Colossalcon was amazing. For a full journal, refer to my other blog.
3 nights falling asleep and waking up by his side. Another 1.5-2 years before I can do that every day.
I love going to con with him. He's always by my side, even when I tell him we can split up if he wants to. Creepers stayed away from me whenever he was around :D And he dressed up for the formal ball. Damn, he dresses up nice. Now, where were these clothes during homecoming?!
I want to go back to the ball. Finally dragging Shayne out to dance then dancing slowly with him- first a sort of ballroom then the typical head-on-shoulder kind of dancing. I completely lost myself ♥ When I opened my eyes, I was sooo disoriented, but it was worth it.
We went to the rave, where he really loosened up. I could dance with him forever. ...Well, until my ribs ache XD
After we left, he penguin proposed to me ♥ I didn't know what he was doing when he handed me a round, sparklyish, off-white rock and nearly just dropped it down. Good thing I didn't, because he explained that when penguins choose a mate, they search the beach for the most perfect rock and give it to their mate. He didn't search all of the rocks, but it's a pretty nice rock :)
Penguins mate for life
I've spent forever writing this blog and I'm tired, but I don't want to go to bed. I don't want to sleep alone :/
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Pre-Colossalcon (short)
Today we leave for Colossalcon. I've been looking forward to this since before we knew he could come with us. 4 days, 3 nights, just me, him, and Lewis. (Chrissy isn't able to go with us cause her mom's being a meany face that Lewis is a guy.)
Finally, I will be able to wake up with him there ♥
Exams have been so stressful. We both need this vacation.
Finally, I will be able to wake up with him there ♥
Exams have been so stressful. We both need this vacation.
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